Today was the interview that I had been waiting for over a year to happen. It well I dressed up like a corporate shmuck. From there I just answered a whole bunch of strangely worded questions and promptly celebrated the fact that it was finally over. After work, I went to denny’s and had a number of drinks. Now, I’m tore up while getting odd looks from a feline that wants my attention. The end.
What a strange day. I talked to a kid all day about traveling the world and how to take care of monkeys. I think I ‘m getting sick. Plus tomorrow is my interview as well as my potential last day. It is a very complicated matter and I really can’t go into detail at all. I bought my suit for 25 bucks at the thrift store. I couldn’t believe that I matched my Jacket and pants while getting a perfect fit for both!! If tomorrow is my last day, I’m definitely going out in style.
I’ve got it pretty good. I live in a house with 4 other people and work at a place I love going to. My whole day was so easy I couldn’t believe it. It was kind of snowy in the morning so many people decided to stay home. I sat in a quiet section of my workplace with one other guy I know who had his interview for the same job I applied for. During this time I just did what I was asked to do and finished within a few hours. The rest of the time was very relaxed.
A little over a year ago I was living with a person I didn’t really want to be around most of the time yet I could not escape her grasp. She was my girlfriend but I wasn’t attracted to her at all. The whole situation was that at one point I couldn’t afford to pay my bills and she was there to help me. I really liked her friendship and kindness at the time but she wanted everything from me. After a while I moved in with her and I spent most days letting her deal with my life while I just went to work not worrying about anything. This really started to suck quickly. Anything I wanted to do had to be discussed and approved by her. It was if she was my life-boss or something along those terms. Don’t get me wrong we did share some amazingly good times occasionally but most of the time we were miserable and I really didn’t think that I would be happy unless I left her. So, in November of 2006 I cashed a huge tax return and left after a really stupid argument over how I felt about our whole arrangement. By some strange miracle I paid off every dime I owed her just like I promised her. We haven’t spoken for a year now. Sometimes I’m curious about what she looks like now and what she is doing with her life but I know its better if I never see her again for as long as I can. Nothing good can come from any exchange of words between her and I. Three years of dependence is enough. I don’t think giving her any words or even a glance out of me is worth settling the small grain of curiosity left in my mind.
Nowadays, it’s me back to being my usual self. Desperation followed by joy. Struggles followed by witless fulfillment. Long periods of laziness followed by random bursts of energetic ambition. This whole project is blowing my mind a little. To think I could write a few words a day regardless of subject matter. Although its retardedly self centric, I still am very proud to be in the process accomplishing something I wanted to do.
I think the secret is that I told nobody about this blog. Some of my friends knows it exists but I don’t ever talk about it or what I wanted to do with it. Everyday I want to make some new sub goal for this thing. Like put at least one link in each post or make a web comic out of photos at least once a week. Unfortunately, I don’t want to make any more rules for I may just abandon this thing all together. So I profess to make this as easy as posting once for everyday of the year as I set out to do originally.
I read this post today about 9 ways to make yourself absolutely miserable. A few months ago I was doing all of these things. Really, I want to say it was from the anxiety of know about the job I applied for 6 months before it was posted. However I believe there were other issues below the surface. There is value in knowing what is bothering a person. Simply acknowledging that they exist is a good start to obliterating the problem. Unfortunately, I sometimes refuse to do anything about my situation leaving me to stew in anger until I decide that its time to get over whatever it is I’m having issues with. Also, I forget to set finite time limits on how long I will dwell on a problem before extinguishing it. There is no point in solving a problem if I do not understand the true nature of it. Enough of this psychotic vagueness.
Burnout has a special meaning to me for some reason. I discovered it on my own when I had heard nothing about the first incarnation of it for the original Xbox which in some ways saved my life or current quality of life as I know it today. Something about driving into oncoming traffic to get speed boosts makes me remember where I was about 6 years ago. Today I played the newest game in the series, Burnout Paradise on my newly acquired PS3. Its very fun and the online aspects are incredible. I just wish it had custom soundtracks.
Today I had to work unexpectedly. Just another day of overtime that I wish I hadn’t done. It went by relatively fast.
Then I went to see the most violent move ever. Rambo 4 was just brutal gore from start to finish. I couldn’t believe the things they were able to pull off. It think if the move was just Stallone firing a chain gun into bad guys for 90 minutes it would still be worth my 10 bucks. Then I spent the rest of my time playing Warhawk on my PS3 and I am very tired all of a sudden.
Today I took an extended lunch with my bosses so they could treat a few of my co-workers for working so many insane hours at the beginning of the year. It was the first time I had hung out with any of them outside of the workplace so it was kind of interesting. Most of the conversation was about T.V. so it was hard for me to relate considering I haven’t watched T.V. in a very long time. Although I do miss watching EPL games on the Soccer Channel. It was a very relaxed occasion and I got paid for it. I then proceeded to do what I usually do on Fridays which just pick something mundane to accomplish while watching the clock tick by.
So on a whim I purchased a PlayStation 3. I had plenty of money for it and I had a gift card left over from Christmas. The crappy thing about it was I had to wait about an hour and a half for the thing to update. Once that was over I played Warhawk for a few hours. My friend from work came over and hung out for a while to drink some Captain while shouting at the games we were all playing. Overall a regular day except now I have all three next-gen consoles at my disposal. Part of me wishes I had just purchased a gym membership but I don’t think I am in the right mindset yet.
My god. I looked at my gut today and it’s very obvious that I am a pile of fluff. Although I do have potential to shape myself into a rock. Now that my Wednesdays are free I can plan a workout routine. I’m sure there is a site out there that will let me track this stuff on a regular basis. Or I could just make an Excel document or something. I donno, but I need to build some momentum so I can get rid of my flab before it becomes a serious problem.
Also, I need to start concentrating on my book. Since I write a few hundred words of non-fiction everyday I think I will be able to step up the Fiction that I am trying to create. I still don’t have a title yet. I’m sure it will come to me when the time is right. I just love my idea so much that I want it to be exactly the way I envisioned it. At the same time I don’t want to over think formalities while in the creative process.
One of these days I will post something interesting instead of this shit about my dumb life.
I found out today that a project that I had been working on with some friend is no longer something I can participate in. It sucks but that’s the way my business works sometimes. I’m sure I will work with my friends independently again some day. This news came today after finding out when my second interview is.
I came home and played some PS3 games with my roommate. I came to the conclusion that all games would be better if voice acted by hillbillies. Currently I am IMing a friend while answering mensa questions. I am a fucking genius.
This morning I realized how out of shape I have become. It’s weird to me because I used to be a very active person. I would spend so much of my time outside skateboarding in my younger days that I never considered my physical fitness to be an issue. All day I have been sore from the royal pounding I got from snowboarding the day before. I ache everywhere. I feel really good though. I am considering working out every other day even if I don’t quit smoking right away. Having a nice flat stomach again would be nice rather than having early signs of flab encroach on my midsection. I do have a 20lb. dumbbell siting behind my computer chair that I could use on a more regular basis.
So I saw a video of a guy trying to defend the mild sex scene in Mass Effect on Fox news of all places. It really pissed me off. Also, it was further proof that I do not regret boycotting television. The guy wins the argument with his first question which is simply “Have you played Mass Effect?” to which the child psychologist replies as if she was just asked if she watches porn on a regular basis, “NO!”. Mass Effect is special to me. It symbolizes my personal achievement in the gaming industry. This is mostly due to the fact that my name is somewhere in the credits toward the end. There are so many other things these fuckers could be shitting all over like they do 24 hours a day. My god…I think that every thing that came out of there mouth was intended to scare the living shit out of stupid Americans that haven’t caught up with the times.
I went over this scenario in my head. wondering if I was being interviewed by FOX I would use their own tactics against them. I would exclaim that the little bit of sexuality in the game is very harmful and yet there are hundreds of games on the market where children potentially have access to offensive and desensitizing media. The only way to stop all children from accessing this kind of trash is to cut it off at the source. I say that the government should require a permit be purchased prior to developing a game after the concept and a detailed report on all potential offensive materials in each game be submitted to an approval board be fore a game can be made. Then any harmful media cannot be created keeping all children safe from this filth. Blah blah… something like that. It’s like…fuck freedom of speech, my kids aren’t safe!
I woke up around 10 am to some hustle going on in the house. We were going snowboarding today and I have never been. So the roommates and I pack into the car and head east for about 2 hours towards Steven’s Pass. Once we arrived the parking attendant informed us that all of the lots were full and we should come back in 2 hours. Then she handed us four free lift tickets. So we kept going until we found this 50’s style diner in the middle of nowhere. I ate a huge bacon burger and a blueberry milkshake.
So we headed back up the pass and got our lift tickets. I was instantly gone. I just picked a lift and got on. Unfortunately, I have no skills riding a snowboard. So I fell down every fifty feet and couldn’t for the life of me control where I was going. Also I am very out of shape and snowboarding takes so much out of you. My roommates caught up with me and tried to give me pointers. I thought I was going to throw up. Which is exactly what I did. It was the first time I had vomited in the snow and I was strangely fascinated by the effect. So when I felt better I rode down the rest of the slope to get some water. Feeling a little better I rode down the beginner hill once to get the hang of everything. The rest of the day I spent falling down and screaming in pain. I definitely like the sport and I think I will take it a bit easer next time.
I uh…spent about 900 dollars on a Snowboard, Boots, Bindings, Gloves, Goggles, socks, pants and an awesome red and Black striped hoodie today. Tomorrow I will be heading up to stevens pass to see if I like the sport. I have been putting off buying a snowboard for a long time now and I am very excited to get outside for once. Let’s see If I come back alive.
I saw Cloverfield last night right after work with my roommate and his girlfriend. It wasn’t bad but it wasn’t what I expected either. I like that it tried the whole First-Person “Camera man is also a character” thing but I just hate it when an action thriller has to tell a love story in the middle of it. Some people booed at the end of it. I suppose thats Bellevue for you.
After that, I dicked around at home and played some CS:Source on my old favorite server. It has been a while since I’ve played. Then I got an IM from some old friends of mine who were all getting drunk and playing Rock Band. So I joined them and filled in on drums for a while. We then proceeded to the Egyptian Theater to see a midnight showing of Strainge Brew. At this point I was so tired that I fell asleep half way through the movie. So I left to go home. It felt good to get out of the house again. Also I think my daily blogging is getting worse as it is becoming more of a chore than a good pastime. I have a feeling it will improve.
So I got the largest check I’ve ever earned for working one week. After paying up a few bills I decided that I will buy a snowboard…I think. I’ve always wanted to go and there are plenty of great spots around here. It seems like a good extension to skateboarding which I always end up doing every summer when its not raining every day.
Then again, I would like a new monitor. the one I have now is bulky and not very…good. I’d like to get one that I can plug gaming systems into but…I donno. I suppose I don’t really know what I want. The snowboard thing would force me to buy a new coat for the winter. I’ve been freezing my ass of the past couple of days.
So I picked up Advanced Wars: Days of Ruin today. I got through the first 8 missions so far and I really like it. This one seems much more balanced than the last game which had you building up power to get extra turns. The story is very dark given that the world was just hit by a billion comets. That and there is a terrible disease that makes flowers sprout out your ass before it kills you. I didn’t mean to become a reviewer or anything but its something I think I will play often in my spare time. This allows my PSP to gather dust for a while.
