October 12th, The First Real Weekend.

I haven’t been able to chill out at my house for about 3 months because of all of the working I’ve been doing. I was going to dedicate an entire weekend to playing Warhammer Online but I felt that I have neglected a bunch of my other games. Plus I really wanted to finally see what my computer is really capable of on Saturday so I played Crysis until the game started shiting memory like it had dysentery. Man, that game really hates North Korea. Also, it killed some time while I waited by my phone for that ‘Q’ girl to call me back as I wanted to set up another spectacuar date. She never called back which means any of these three things in any combination:

1. She is not that facinated by me and really doesn’t want to date.

2. She has been murdered by my last ex-girlfriend in the most awful way imaginable. Possibly something involving some duct tape, some broken glass, a trebuchet and a very large stuffed spongebob squarepants.

3. She has been kidnaped by the CIA because of some past dirt she dug up on the government about communications with alien races and was brainwashed and therefore forgot to call me back.

In any case I believe I’m ready to call the whole interaction between us expired. Oh well, it happens. Its about fucking time I got rejected anyways.

Today came along quite nicely as I woke up to some sausage breakfast. Delicious!

I spent some paying more attention to my PS3 as I sorted through the 4’s that I have given little attention to. Like Armored Core 4, Devil May Cry 4, Soul Calibur 4, Call of Duty 4, Elder Scrolls 4 and Grand Theft Auto 4. After playing Grand Theft Auto I switched to a flash game called Don’t Shoot the Puppy which was a surprisingly difficult considering the transition.

All that and I still managed to re-caulk my bathtub. Sure beats working. I’ll be posting more now that the weather has forced me inside. I can think more introspectively as I freeze my ass off.

October 3rd, Another wasted Friday.

What a disappointing Friday as I welcome the first real rain of the fall season. I won’t see the sun for quite some time. I remember basking in the sun all summer long as a kid almost to the point where I was getting tired of sunny days. Lazing about, not doing anything important. This year I spent hardly anytime outside. I just worked a lot. I earned a ton of money and paid back a whole lot of debt. Still I wish I had done something worthwhile.

Today was supposed to be movie night where a bunch of people come over and watch movies. My roommate who usually hosts this thing is in New York at the moment. So it came down to just one of my old friends, my French roommate and myself. I tried getting Q to come but she hates horror movies. Which kind of brings the up the first questionable scenario of ‘is this worth it?’ in my head. Meh…I’m thinking I’m just bummed out that I didn’t get to hang out with a girl on this Friday night when I had it all lined up.

This is also the first weekend where there is no party opportunities on Saturday. Since I’ve started working 70+ hours every week I have managed to make it to at least one party every Saturday night. Last weekend I passed on an opportunity to just chill out because I felt myself getting sick. Now the overtime is ending and my partys are too…

It’s kinda crazy to think that I would party on a Saturday then go into work on a Sunday for 8 hours but I have been doing that. I am dead to the world on Sunday but at least I felt like I could still fit in a good time if I wanted to. One week it was an early housewarming party. The next week it was a kegger with a bunch of Microsoft hooligans. The weekend before all of that was Sausagefest 3. Now it is time to stew. I have been thinking about this for a while. It is time for me to get back to writing my book or a screenplay. It’s time for me to beat another video game. It is time for me to hate life some more and to get creative about venting the shittyness that I believe I live in. I think I should untie a few knots.

October 1st, Skipping a whole fucking month.

So yeah that’s what I did. I worked every day this month except the 30th. Here are some titles that could of come out of this month but didn’t ok…

The best and the worst: Bumbershoot sucked, PAX rocked too hard.

The constant cycle: living everyday as if it were the same.

The things I swore I’d never do: Dating a girl I met at work and MMORPG’s…

So on that last note, why the fuck do people make standards right. For me I just enevitably break them. It like puting a self destruct sequence on a delay. What the fuck am I talking about?

Ok

1. So I started playing WARHAMMER ONLINE with my roommates in the midst of working 70+ hours a week. Great timing eh… For so long I swore I would never play a game like that because of how fucking much time it consumes. I’m kind of an old schooler. I like playing a ton of games for short amounts of time. Not one game for five fucking years. But at the same time I feel that since I never played WoW I feel like this is a good introduction to the genre. I started fresh with everyone else because it only came out last week. Everything is new to everyone so it is like a group effort trying to figure everything out. Whatever, I hope I find something better to play by the end of next year. So far I am having fun and it hasn’t taken over too much of my free time…yet.

Q

That is what she goes by. I met her at work and I am breaking a sacred creed made by some of my closest bros ‘Thou shalt not shit where thyne eats.’ which basically means you don’t try to get involeved with anyone within your realm of income. However, this girl is lightyears smarter than me and she is into many common facets of my world. Also, I have always wondered how detrimental to my lifestyle it would be to do something like this. I mean we are in different areas all of the time and there is very little chance that we would work directly with each other. Plus I am sure that she is not phycotic…by that I mean she isn’t going to try to get me fired if anything went sour which I don’t see happening unless I get really fucking bent out of shape and wish to destroy everything that I hold dear to my heart.

So yeah there is my justification. Sounds like I need more days off. Sounds like my head is not completly screwed in right. Sounds like the beginning of another complicated winter. Sounds like I need to take a vacation.